My beautiful baby girl has been in pain for weeks now on and off. A pain that one can only imagine at having had bad toothache in the past. The constant pain and discomfort is only heightened by the fact that she cannot understand why it is happening or do anything to stop it. Not only this, but she looks to me and Fergotron to make it go away and we can do nothing either. We hold her, we pat her, we give her Calpol and we try to distract her while our hearts break at the pain we know we cannot abate. Just for an extra bit of fun she now occasionally bites her tongue or her lip because she isn’t used to having razor sharp teeth there to hurt her, so she no longer knows how to eat, drink, chatter or even suck her thumb any more without hurting herself. Everything she knows is wrong.
The fun doesn’t stop there, as if this isn’t enough myself and Fergotron are only able to stare helplessly on while this happens. Naturally Lizzy not sleeping means we aren’t sleeping. Even less fun before now that Fergotron is back at work so there is a need for the entire house to get a good rest. Now that our coping mechanisms are reduced due to insufficient rest and our emotions are high due to watching our baby struggle we get a nice influx of worry about her lack of appetite and thirst. As if this wasn’t sufficient there is a good smattering of guilt at not being able to help. We don’t want to give her Calpol if we don’t have to but sometimes it takes the edge off for her – sometimes of course it doesn’t. We try to tell her that it will be ok, it will pass but we don’t know how long it will take. New games like ‘clap your hands’ are not happening as the majority of time between soreness is spent zoning out. Now I can’t speak for Fergotron but for me there is also a huge worry that this is having a psychological effect on her, that she was in pain and we didn’t help and somehow this will carry on to her adult development. Of course this is nonsense – we all have teeth don’t we but we don’t resent our parents for not helping - but I am prone to internal (and external) melodrama, having read too many pop psychology websites. I know just enough to worry and not enough to really understand. Ahh the folly of the Wikipedia blue link!
Now I know there is an argument given that the evolution is part of the design, but if so I’d still comeback to this point; If this world is a creation of the luck of evolution, then it’s doing pretty well, but if this is any part of any design, well lets just say, if the person was designing anything for me I’d Alan Sugar their ass.
I'm on holiday now for a week, so this will be the last post for a few days. Keep up with us on twitter though to see when we are back. Who knows what adventures we might have been up to.